As a woman we want to be desired, we want to WANT to be loved, we want to be NEEDED, we need to be made to feel special, we need to feel unique, we have to be made to feel beautiful...by those around us, but most importantly from our significant other.
I want so badly for someone to just love the shit out of me....but I've found out I don't feel like I'm worthy of that love nor right now can I allow myself to be that vulnerable. What a place to be in right?! Stuck between a rock and a hard place.
I wonder if and when some guy will feel that way about me.....that he can't stand NOT having me in his life because he cares about me that much, because he loves me that much.
My heart wishes to live in a fairy tale. Will it ever happen?!
Although with that I will also note I am nowhere close to being ready to be married or have kids....I just want to be loved, desired, needed, wanted, and to feel special. By a special someone.
Eric makes me feel that way sometimes....but not always.