Tuesday, July 12, 2011

On the brink...

Almost three crazy weeks of working straight through, and there's a light at the end of the tunnel.


In T-minus 2 days :-)

It's hard to verbally explain the importance of this trip...but it is important, and symbolic.

For the first time, I am traveling somewhere I said I wanted to go. Instead of just saying, I am doing. Throwing caution to the wind. I have no plans, no map, and absolutely no idea what it is I will actually do with myself.

Granted I will be surfing my cousin's couch, but I will be in a new city...representing the gateway to this vast yet small world that I am so desperate to explore...all by myself, with only me to pave my way and go frolik as I see fit.

It's only 6 days, but it's six days of something completely new.

That seems to be a theme in my life and I'm loving it!

I'm on the brink of something wonderful, and beautiful, and spiritual.

I am back, and I am doing and going, and I couldn't be more proud of myself.

Never before has the fear of failure ever been so prevalent, in so many ways. But isn't that the beauty of life?! That despite stakes being high and the fear being legitimate that something wonderful and blessed might just be what awaits us?! Part of the inherent beauty of life is the risk-taking. And here I am, walking to the ledge in so many ways, still fearfully looking down at how far I could fall...but then I lift my head up and see how majestic the view is and it's totally worth it!!

Live a beautiful life, passionately....in whatever way that means to you.

Portland, I can't wait to explore you, and see what new things you awaken in my soul...and I can't wait to see what I bring back. An eye-opener is in store, more dreams will be rekindled and new dreams will be born.

Did I also mention my passion for love is coming back. So amusing how I shut off all of love last year. But love is what life is about...all forms, shapes and sizes of love are essential. And it feels SO good to love again. And it feels SO refreshing to be IN LOVE with life again. How did I lose that?! That doesn't matter...it's back, and I'm grateful for it.