I need a place to write...

I need a place to write....one in which friends can check up if they want or hear what I have to say...but most importantly a place for me to put my thoughts.

Sometimes I feel like life is living me and me not living life. Isn't that horrible?! For the most part I'm happy but I feel like I don't get a chance to just be or do something out of pure enjoyment for myself.

But I suppose that's how it goes.

I am almost finished with my first degree, only roughly $16,000 in debt for schooling. I will graduate with my bachelor's in Nutrition & Fitness next year and I have NO idea what I want to do. I want to finish nursing school but that will be another long adventure. The real world is coming up soon....and I have no idea what I'm doing.

I'm working as Personnel Manager here at the IBOX (Information Desk & Box Office) at Colorado State University for $1 more than minimum wage. I love it but man do college students get ripped off or what?! I'm also planning on jumpstarting a little bit of business as an Arbonne Consultant, for pocket money and whatnot. I think I can do it!! I really do think I can do it :) We'll see though.

Wow, almost 21 in two months. I never thought I'd be 21. But here it is. Crazy. Now I really am an "adult" and that is just scary in itself.

I can't complain though. God is continually blessing me with opportunities; opportunities to grow and depend on Him. God loves that, me depending on Him, and He makes me do it so often. Right now I'm working on listening to God, to what God really wants. And I can say as being someone who is usually non-observant and oblivious to most of the world, it's difficult.

But I am thankful; thankful for His strength and love and grace. Because I would not be where I am and I would not be who I am without it.

Thank you Lord, for everything. For Your grace and love, for Your strength and forgiveness. Thank You.